Gamer?

For most of my life I would have labeled myself as a gamer. These days not so much. I think it really hit me the other day when I went into Gamestop to trade my xbox 360 in for an Ouya. Yes, the Ouya is a gaming system, but for me it is not really a gaming system. I have owned a system of every generation beginning with the Super Nintendo. I have often traded in to trade up to the next gen, but this year I feel like I traded down. I think that World of Warcraft ruined the console for me. I first played in 2004/2005. Since that point I quickly switched over to computer games. The years that followed I went back and forth canceling and rejoining WoW. I often looked for replacements to alleviate the addiction to grind, very few other games compensated for what I want from WoW, except Elder Scrolls: Morrowind. Everytime WoW's monthly hurt the bills I would drop it and fall back to Elder Scrolls. I did not play much of the others in the series, only testing out the brother-in-law's copies every once in a while. I often purchased consoles years after they came out and really only played with others rather than by myself. By my lonesome I usually resorted to the comp once again. Finally with college over and a steady income I finally purchased into the new Android mobile phone, that I heard was easy to code apps for. Convinced the wifey that I needed the phone to understand it and what I needed to do to make apps for it. Taking less than a semester of coding in college I sat myself down and began to study online how to create these apps. This learning process was time consuming but fun and became my new addiction. My ideas for apps were numerous but my skills were pathetic. I finally resorted to adjusting some of the premade google apps and eventually turned a call log into my first app. Surprisingly people were installing it even though it was crap. After a long year or so I greatly improved my programing skills and surprisingly that same simple call log continued to be my best revenue of all the apps, even though my best was still not that great. Although I am happy that I eventually got a game out on the market, I was not so elated that it is nearly impossible to attract people into playing a Math game. Yes, I have more ideas for games and even have worked on a slots game that some of you have tested out, but my skills still lack for what I need for a solid game. Going back to school I'm hoping will help and maybe finally I will be able to use my years as a gamer to good. Now, coming back from a year without console or major computer games and nothing but Facebook and mobile games and no programming, luckily I have my generous brother-in-law to hook me up with Elder Scrolls: Skyrim. Quickly putting in many hours and staying up late to play reminds me of the good old days, and even though I did trade in that xbox I feel like I can retain my gamer status when you find out what xbmc.org is and why you too may want an Ouya!

Feels Good!

I've got a good feeling, indeed. Not sure what's different this time. It's probably my  excitement to go back to school or maybe the fact that my Google ad revenue has been increasing without doing a damn thing for a year. No, maybe it's the  excitement of being eligible for a phone upgrade. New devices always bring a spark of life to me. Ewe almost pushed my self to go for a windows phone... Before you hate think about my situation. I'm on T-Mobile jump program where I can switch every six months. Thought I could try it out and always go back to my beloved Android. After all I'm looking to make money off this whole developing apps thing! Maybe I could pop out an app in those six months...

I'm pretty much an Android fanboy all the way. I convert most iPhone users and windows users, meh, never met one... Any others out there? Sorry for no shout out, but seriously? Any company trying to come out with a new mobile os right now that's cute but it's probably not going to get you anywhere at this point. The market is in control for many years to come.

Per usual I'm all over the place, so to sum up. Yay Android, yay school, and yay money!

Stop lollygagging...

It's about time I stop. I have wasted too much time I can't get back. Many tiny and major things have occurred to build up the culmination of change in me. So I'm going to get my shit together. Today marks the day (technically it was a while back, but you don't know that, well, I guess now you do...)!

Since it was mostly a hobby, I felt I could step away and do something else for fun. Now my brain is mush and Facebook games are getting boring again... I know, right? I'm a gamer that stooped that low and desperate to get addicted to Facebook games! Anyway, I believe I'm digressing or maybe it's my point who knows. Either way I'm coming back. It's been too damn long since making a post. And Twitter people, not sure if you care, but I'll be back there sooner or later too.

Bze Slots

I've been working on a new Android application. I haven't put as much time into this one as some of the others but I wanted to get some beta testers trying it out. This link will send you to google docs where you can download it to your Android phone: Bze Slots!

My First Father's Day

I'm confused. I'm proud, but not sure how to feel. I'm an emotional man, but completely out of touch with my emotions since my daughter was taken away from our lives. Today, I should be holding her in my arms. I should be feeding her and tickling her. It should be a weekend of celebration, but in my heart it is far from that. I usually need answers, but quickly realized this was one thing that will never be answered. Why was she taken? It makes no sense. Two loving parents that would have done anything for their child. Now, every little face reminds me of her and what could have been. Every tear I could have wiped away. Every smile I could have captured. Every hug I could have squeezed.

There's 'help' at every corner, "Let me know what I can do for you." I hated hearing these words, but heard it from everyone. I know it was probably hard for them too. What do you say to a parent that has lost a child? You can't tell someone you know what it's like to lose a child unless you have. Usually when my emotions overwhelm me I like my space, but telling people to leave me alone didn't feel right. So, my "thank you" appeased their struggle of what to say, but denied me any type of the same.

I'm usually a happy person. I love to laugh and make others laugh. I don't want to burden people with my story, but I want people to know. I want people to know what I'm going through without having to discuss it.  I want people to know how beautiful my daughter was without asking to see pictures. I just want things to have been different...